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“Shaman Girl – dancing between worlds” by Meghan Gilroy

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A few of my favorite quotes from Shaman Girl: (free download here) “I want to kill. How is inducing me to want to kill someone part of the process of becoming more enlightened?” “All of time unfolds. The beautiful. The brutal. The pleasure. The pain.” “Crap. We are locked in Machu...
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A few of my favorite quotes from Shaman Girl:
(free download here)

“I want to kill. How is inducing me to want to kill someone part of the process of becoming more enlightened?”

“All of time unfolds. The beautiful. The brutal. The pleasure. The pain.”

“Crap. We are locked in Machu Picchu, with our llama friends.”

“So with a gleam in my eye, we stood back to back, like cowboys about to draw guns, on cue, we turned around. “Be nice….” Shaman Guy tried to cajole me.”

Shaman Girl – dancing between worlds by Meghan Gilroy is a fun, entertaining, raw, witty and honest memoir detailing Meghan’s heart-driven journey from overachieving Pittsburgh-raised good girl to shamanic healer trained in the lineage of don Miguel Ruiz.

Meghan’s fine storytelling kept me laughing and crying with her as we traveled from white bread middle-class upbringing through personal heartbreak and life purpose crisis, introduction to the Toltec community and finally study with don Miguel Ruiz, author of The Four Agreements. Then on to meeting her Shaman Guy, marrying him on top the pyramids in Teotihuacan 2 weeks after their first date, and trekking back across the USA to Marblehead, MA, where we would become friends and colleagues. Though I knew the skeleton outline of the story already, having it fleshed it out was eye-opening.

Throughout the book, I was inspired and encouraged by the way Meghan shows us how to merge the muck with the magical, the mud with the mystical. It’s messy sometimes, and mind-blowing others.

Shaman Girl is a good read, regardless of whether you are looking for your own life purpose, curious about what it’s like to be an intimate part of a spiritual community, or you just want to find out how Meghan and Company get released from the locked gates of Macchu Picchu.

Gracias a Dios.

P.S. – Meghan will be leading a retreat on “The Secrets of Sacred Ceremony” in Teotihuacan from Sept. 27 – Oct. 3 2017. I will be joining her as part of the support team. 

If you are interested in coming to play with us, please email Meghan@meghangilroy.com to be put on the First to Know details list. 

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Janeen Barnett is a Massage & Energy Therapist and the Founder of Au Soleil Healing Inc. As an interpreter and translator between your body and your conscious mind, she helps you reconcile and release experiences for deep healing.

New Year 2017 Blessings

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Dear Ones, Sending you belated greetings and wishes for a New Year filled with health, happiness and wholeness. In deep gratitude for our continued relationship – Janeen...
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Dear Ones,

Sending you belated greetings and wishes for a New Year filled with health, happiness and wholeness.

In deep gratitude for our continued relationship –
Janeen

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Janeen Barnett is a Massage & Energy Therapist and the Founder of Au Soleil Healing Inc. As an interpreter and translator between your body and your conscious mind, she helps you reconcile and release experiences for deep healing.

Separation is only an Illusion

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A few weeks ago Jeff and I were able to make it to a Saturday morning yoga class. It didn’t take me long to realize it was going to be a difficult one. I had not yet given myself space and time to process and grieve recent life events and...
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A few weeks ago Jeff and I were able to make it to a Saturday morning yoga class. It didn’t take me long to realize it was going to be a difficult one. I had not yet given myself space and time to process and grieve recent life events and it was all going to come out on the mat.

The last week of September was a tough one. On Monday I was notified that my office had been broken into and some personal items stolen, and on Tuesday our beloved cat died.

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I’ve said from the moment he entered our lives that Cameroun Hiroshima was not really a cat. I’ve never been sure what type of special spirit he was at his Essence – Spirit Guide, Angel or something else – but everyone who met him adored him. He was my companion, my protector and confidante, and he slept on my head every night for much of his life. If anyone in the house, human or animal, was ill or troubled he would curl up next to them, purring away and on guard, until they recuperated. He was a personality and a character to the end, always an Alpha cat and always the head of the household.

Cami manifested the word “Love”. He loved people and attention from them, he loved to be petted, he loved food, he loved being outdoors, he loved hunting, and he even loved the beach, following us there for a walk from time to time. I can’t think of anything he didn’t love, except being told what to do (being carried into the house at dusk, for example.)

Cami was diagnosed with intestinal cancer in mid-September and quickly went downhill, though he still had life in his eyes and enjoyment in his heart. Until his last day.

When I woke that morning, I knew something had shifted. Growing up on a farm and volunteering with hospice patients I’ve seen enough of the active dying process to recognize it. I’m also comfortable with letting it happen. As long as he wasn’t showing signs of pain or other distress I was happy to let him go peacefully at home.

About midnight he threw up on himself and I knew that was not a good sign. He hadn’t wanted us near him all day, but by then he was so far away that Jeff and I were able to sit with him. Cami started to breathe strangely; I later found out from the vet it is called “agonal breathing”, and is the innate way we try to re-start our heart when it stops beating. I put my hand on his head, on his crown chakra, giving him some Reiki loving. My other hand was on Jeff.

All at once I felt the most powerful ethereal wind I have ever known come from the trees outside and through the glass door to where we were sitting. It literally took my breath away. As soon as it reached us I saw Cami’s crown chakra turn a burnished brilliant liquid gold, and I watched as the gold began to spread. Once it reached all of his extremities and lit his entire body with it’s sheen, I felt him take his last breath. The entire process took only moments.

There is a tiny amount of solace knowing that he is safe, sound and watched over.

I am however, heartbroken. Numb. Distraught.

All of this deep feeling comes out as I lie in child’s pose, sobbing into my yoga mat that Saturday morning.

Suddenly The Voice speaks quite clearly and firmly into my ear:

Separation is only an Illusion

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Did it magically take all my grief, anger, denial and sadness away? No. But it did remind me of the bigger reality, one I have been privileged to witness time and again, this time with my beautiful cat.

In the United States we are heading into our holiday season, beginning with our national day of Thanksgiving this Thursday. It seems that our people have never been so divided, so filled with fear, distrust and outright hatred of each other. Separated by our differences.

I hope I can remember and act on this sacred message, no matter what the future holds.

Separation is only an Illusion

God/dess Bless America.

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Janeen Barnett is a Massage & Energy Therapist and the Founder of Au Soleil Healing Inc. As an interpreter and translator between your body and your conscious mind, she helps you reconcile and release experiences for deep healing.

You are a Miracle

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A few weeks ago I was honored and blessed to travel to beautiful and historic Saratoga Springs, NY and take an Intro to Biodynamic Craniosacral Therapy class. On a Practitioner level I learned a few new holds to add to my bodywork toolbox, as well as new ways of being...
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A few weeks ago I was honored and blessed to travel to beautiful and historic Saratoga Springs, NY and take an Intro to Biodynamic Craniosacral Therapy class. On a Practitioner level I learned a few new holds to add to my bodywork toolbox, as well as new ways of being present in the work. It’s been a fun and creative process as I begin to weave these new skills into the tapestry of my sessions.

On a deeper holistic level I was re-minded of several concepts that are applicable to everyday life, regardless of who you are or what you do:

WE ARE ALL UNIQUE

At 5 weeks after conception a girl embryo contains 5-9 million gamete cells that will become the million or so eggs present at her birth. About 400 of these will mature in her lifetime, and one, only ONE of them, became YOU!

The average man ejaculates an average of 100 million sperm cells at a time. And one, only ONE of them, became YOU!

Math like this is not my strong suit, but even without accurate numbers I can marvel at the odds stacked against you and I being exactly who we turned out to be.

Will you marvel with me?

WE ARE ALL MIRACLES

Once these two tiny cells came together and became YOU, you knew exactly what to do to survive and grow.

You were only a small group of cells, but you knew how to divide into more and more cells. You knew how to direct some of these cells to become the embryo and others to become the placenta, which would house and nourish you for the next several months.

You knew how, as a small ball of 200-300 cells, to find, orient and drill into your Mom’s uterine wall when it was time. You knew how to organize and differentiate cells into a spinal cord, muscles, blood, bone and organs. You knew how to create lungs, that you would need them in the future, but that you shouldn’t use them just quite yet.

You knew when you are done growing and ready to transition and YOU initiated the process of your birth. You carried this inner knowing into the rest of your life.

“A miracle began at the moment the sperm met the egg and that miracle became you. That miracle hasn’t ended yet. The mystery that propelled the growth and development of an embryo continues after birth and throughout life as the forces of adaptation and healing.” – Bonnie Gintis, DO in “Engaging the Movement of Life”

Have Faith in the Mystery.

INHERENT HEALTH AND THE ORIGINAL MATRIX

“To find health should be the object of the doctor, anyone can find disease.” – Andrew Taylor Still, founder of Osteopathic Medicine

The origin of the word “health” in English is commensurate with “whole”, and further, “holy”. Inherent Health is innate, a wholeness laid down at the merging of the egg and sperm in the blueprint, the original matrix, that became you. There had to be a certain level of Health to get to the embryonic state, or to the next level. Or to where you are now, ALIVE.

This Inherent Health, this “Wholyness”, is Present as long as we are alive. We are always re-orienting toward it, and it is always available to us.

Often we can tap into Inherent Health ourselves, through a mindfulness, meditative, or prayerful practice. Sometimes it helps to have a friend or a community to walk the way with you, or someone who can aid in creating a safe and sacred space for self-exploration.

It doesn’t matter how you access it, because it is ALWAYS there.

The Fluid Body

Newborn babies are around 78% water; as we age this percentage drops to about 65% for the average adult human. Approximately 2/3 of this is found within our trillions of cells.

We often feel, however, as if we are static. Our bones are solid, aren’t they? No, bone cells are as fluid as the rest of our cells. Even when we are lying completely still, we are moving. And, just like the Mother Earth, there is an innate rhythm to our movement.

Close your eyes for a moment and visualize being at the seashore. Watch the tide come in and the tide go out. Can you find the innate inner knowing rhythm there?

Now turn your attention internally. Can you tune in to the bodily rhythms that are easiest to find, breath and heart beat? Once you have found them, can you go deeper? Can you feel the food moving through the digestive system? Follow the cerebrospinal fluid as it bathes your brain, washing down and through your spinal cord and returning? Maybe even the exchange of oxygen and carbon dioxide between your cells and your blood?

We are fluid beings. EVERYTHING about us is impermanent and open to change. Know that you can bring your conscious attention back to this internal movement anytime you are feeling stuck.

May you find Peace and be thoroughly Blessed this upcoming holiday season.

Janeen

P.S. If you are interested in taking this four-day course, please contact me. There is a possibility it will be offered in Beverly in April 2018. More information can be found here: http://www.craniosacraleducation.com/biodynamic-basics

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Janeen Barnett is a Massage & Energy Therapist and the Founder of Au Soleil Healing Inc. As an interpreter and translator between your body and your conscious mind, she helps you reconcile and release experiences for deep healing.

Who’s your wise woman/man role model?

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“You don’t really know what you got ’til it’s gone.” A few weeks ago I traveled to Texas to say goodbye to a long-time friend of my husbands family; my mother-in-law Judy’s best friend, Freddie. Freddie came into the Barnetts lives when they moved onto her street. Jeff was around...
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“You don’t really know what you got ’til it’s gone.”

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A few weeks ago I traveled to Texas to say goodbye to a long-time friend of my husbands family; my mother-in-law Judy’s best friend, Freddie.

Freddie came into the Barnetts lives when they moved onto her street. Jeff was around 4. The relationships begun in that Southern California neighborhood would endure through several moves and 50 years, give or take.

Freddie came into my life shortly after Jeff and the rest of the Barnett family did, 35 years ago. And as is often the case, I didn’t realize who she had been to me, or the lessons she taught me, until I was processing her death.

She was a remarkable woman who dealt elegantly with change and challenges throughout her life. Back when the Barnetts first met her, Freddie had already had a “starter” marriage that had ended and was married to her second husband, with whom she had a son, Bob. Bob’s father passed away of a sudden heart attack, leaving her with a young son to support. Before women’s lib, before the feminist movement really took hold, she took control of the household, and did it well.

A few years later Freddie, Bob and the Barnetts all moved to Colorado where she met and married her next husband, Gary. Gary had a daughter, Patricia. This was the composition of her family when I met them all.

Many of us have friends who are closer to us than our biological family, a “fremily”, and this was theirs. Christmas, Thanksgivings, birthdays, and other holidays were celebrated together. There were other members of this fremily, but none as close as Freddie and Judy.

Into this pond I swam the first Christmas Jeff and I were dating. Now I come from a very tribal family. My grandmother used to say, even about those who had married into the family, “They’re no blood relation, so they’re no family of mine”. Children, of course, pick up the family belief system without question. And part of our belief system was you NEVER exchanged gifts with anyone except immediate family.

So there I was, a young farm girl with her new boyfriend on Christmas, surrounded by all these strangers who had known each other forever.

After dinner everyone moved into the living room and I realize there are gifts under the tree and they’re handing them out. I’m caught completely off-guard!

 

AWKWARD!!!

I settle into the couch to watch everyone else open their goodies and suddenly

 

PLUNK. I’m handed a small package. The tag reads “To Jan. From Freddie.”

 

WHOA.

Inside is a basic pair of gold stud earrings. Nothing particularly special, but obviously well-thought-out and intentioned by Freddie. I remember them clearly.

To this day the memory brings tears to my eyes.

I was included. Special. Thought about. Recognized. It was a small gesture of generosity on Freddie’s part, one she had probably made many times before, but it opened me to a different way of thinking.

A different way of Being.

Freddie was one of the most hospitable people I have ever known, in the true sense of the word. She loved to cook and set a beautiful table, she loved to have people gathered in her home, not because she wanted to make an impression on anyone; she truly loved people and was interested in them. She’d greet you with a twinkle in her eye and say, “now tell me what’s new”, and she’d mean it. She’d listen closely and give sage advice or a pat of the hand, whichever was appropriate. And if it required a more stern “let that be a lesson to you”, or a shrug of the shoulders and an “oh well!” – her way of saying “That’s life”, then you would get that too.

Freddie lived from the heart and it was real.

No one was ever “lost” in Freddie’s family. Gary died of cancer and Freddie re-married again, to Doug, who brought two children and a grand-daughter with him. Her fourth marriage would be the longest of her life and include more moves. Her son Bob would marry and have a son. Her Christmas letters were filled with news of everyone, various travels to visit the gang, and their family gatherings included all who could make it. I never heard her use the word “step” in referring to anyone. She gathered them all like a mother hen gathers her brood.

At her funeral it was a blessing to meet those face to face whom I had only heard about for years.

I would not say that Freddie and I had a close relationship. Most of the times we saw each other were life events where lots of people gathered, and other times I had young children that kept me running. I never had a deep one-on-one conversation with her. It wasn’t until her death that I realized how little I knew about her and her personal life .

And yet, her presence in my life has profoundly affected me and the woman I am.

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Freddie helped expand my concept of family and the beauty of having a fremily. I would need that expansive idea as I moved away from my own biological family and spread out around the world, so that I would not become isolated and lonely.

Freddie helped teach me the value of small gestures of generosity, inclusion and kindness to others. I can’t even count the blessings reaching out to relative strangers has brought to me.

Freddie was tough. It would be a mistake to confuse her softness as weakness. She faced challenges with both grace and courage. What an inspirational combination!

Most of all, together Judy and Freddie taught me about real friendship between women. They were always there for each other, always supportive, laughing and having fun, but also serious and truthful when necessary. And always came when the other needed them.

They taught me how to “show up” for those you care about.

Godspeed and thank you Freddie. May Light Perpetual Shine Upon You.

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Janeen Barnett is a Massage & Energy Therapist and the Founder of Au Soleil Healing Inc. As an interpreter and translator between your body and your conscious mind, she helps you reconcile and release experiences for deep healing.